ah the story of my life. hart ach. such a pain in the ass to. but listin, i am not a pro at relationships. by far im mostlikley an epic screw up at theme. but if that person loved you, then he will come back. just giv it time

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"shall i give you dis pear??"

xfire user name: rem08
steam ID: remirez08

I don't think he'll ever come back. It's been over two years now. People tell me to move on, but trust me I've been doing all I can to move on. But it's like no matter how many times I try to move on, I still can't help the feeling that I had already met the love of my life too early and somehow something just had to screw it up. Ugh I feel like such a stupid woman, but I just can't help this feeling of having so much locked up in my chest.

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"The hardest part about secretly loving you is that I'll never get to have you."

hey, my mom was married for like 20 somthin years to my dad. and its been 7 years since i died. she still hasnt gone to date or any thing. so i supose if you trully love some one, theer is no moving on.

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"shall i give you dis pear??"

xfire user name: rem08
steam ID: remirez08

awww.....it's true how much you can love someone and have such a hard time moving on.
the difference though is the time i was with him. i wasn't even with him half a year.
actually we were together for like 3-4 months and then it just ended...like that.
and it's been a little over 2 years since i talked to him.
i know i sound sooooooo pathetic, but it's ughhhh. so hard

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"The hardest part about secretly loving you is that I'll never get to have you."

no you dont. funny thing is, i had a girl, i met once, went out on one date with, and she didnt want to see me again, cobntact me recently, this person i hadent talked to in like a year, hit em up on myspace, asking to talk, so i said sure (thinking she just wanted to chit chat and see what life has delt me) come to find out, she confessed her undiying love for me!!! im still taken back by this, and its been a few days. it was so ilogical. but it happend. so i can kinda understand.ither way, your young. yes it will take time. but some one will pop in your life, and be better. take my advice, i have been through hell and back. every thing, evrey littile thing, happens fopr a reson. me being molested for 4 years, had a reson, my father illniss, a reson, and him diying, a reson. me moving across the states, a reson. and hell just chit chating with this lady on the buiss today, a reson. every thing, big or small has a reson, spacific to you. you may not find this oput till years down the road, what the reson the whole breakl up thing happend, but some time down the road you will. itherw ay, if you need help, just shoot me a messege

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"shall i give you dis pear??"

xfire user name: rem08
steam ID: remirez08

que cool!
you too, if you need me for anything i'm here, just message me.
it's funny how life can be so confusing and in the end so understanding.
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
life is a sandwich!!!!
i'm sorry to hear that your father and yourself have gone through so much, and in the end.....i know it must be heart wrenching....i know how it feels because my dad, at the moment, is sick as well.
my sister tells me she has a gut feeling that he and i will talk againn...until then i'll continue to live my life well.
anyways he did say that if our paths do cross again he said he'll remember me....but as of right now i'm not really sure.
my sister says that he hasnt forgotten about me because he really loved me at one point....but then i wonder...because i remembered at one point he questioned whether or not i was real or just a fantasy to him...idk

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"The hardest part about secretly loving you is that I'll never get to have you."

aaaaahhhh... the good old "is this real or a dream" thing. i have been going through that for a year or two, but thats cuz im bi-polar. for me to finaly figure out, that what im in, is reality, i had to have the most ilogical thing happen. the chic confessing her love. that proved, that there is no way im in a dream, or jaked into the matrix, or whta not. somthing like that is so fuking ilogical, a machine or my mind, could not have fabricated it. ither way, give him time. enjoy life as you do. and sorry toi hear about your dad. my pops had scirouses (spelling??) of the liver, docs gave him 2-4 years, he lasted 10. it will be 7 years since his death this december 12th. ither way, keep the hope and faith strong. it will reward you in the end

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"shall i give you dis pear??"

xfire user name: rem08
steam ID: remirez08

mhmmm the whole "is this real or a dream" thing.
this may sound pathetic, but we were actually an internet relationship. so yeah...how pathetic can it get even more huh?
lol jaked into the matrix.
i'll just live on and if i happen to stumble meeting him again, then i will meet him again. no bad thing in doing that.
m'dad had like a mild heart attack like february or something. had to get like this tube put in his heart. now he can't be as active as he use to be. i'm praying that everyday he wakes up knowing that he has a daughter that loves him alot . sometimes just thinking about it makes me want to cry, but i gotta know i gotta keep strong.
like my friends say
espero que dios estas con ti todo tiempo...mhmmmmmmmmmm

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"The hardest part about secretly loving you is that I'll never get to have you."

so true, and the net dating, not as lame as you think. example. its the only way i have ever meta girl. and boy did it get me in some shiz. i wound up trecking across good old united states for girls. and having it end horabley. but then again, my curent girl freind, who i live with, i met online, over craigslist evean!! so hey there is a happy ending of sorts for me. but just take my advice live life happy, and to its fullest. and as for your dad. i can realte so fukin much. i was scared shit less every day. whether pops would be alive when i got home from school. it took him diying, for me to relize, life is a great thing, and it can go in an instant. i feel at times, that i wasted 10 years of my life taking care of him. in those 10 years, i had 0 freinds, and he consumed my life. but on the flip said opf that coin, i got to know my dad better then his wife of 20 somthing years!!! so i wouldnt change those 10 years. it gave me insite into my family, my father, and me. love your father, try to show your love for him. i tried with my dad, and all i got was a smile. no hugs, no nothing. but that one time, he patted me on the back and said "good job dum ass" for some art i did, it changed my life. it ment so much. i mena i cant evean begin to explain how much it ment.

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"shall i give you dis pear??"

xfire user name: rem08
steam ID: remirez08